i guess it doesn't matter i tried, the gate won't open anyway
it just stays close for me
there's just never gonna be invitation to come in
is it because i've done something wrong
or is it just me, me like myself

*shit my light turned off, it's really dark in my room, shit shit shit*

.........it's back on like 3 minutes from then

what i see from you is
you are addicted to this person
you always see her as a perfect person
the best, the smartest, the most talented of all
it's like you can't live without this person

i guess everyone have this one person like that
i've seen some people that is like kinda addicted to this person

i have one, and it's you
and now you get it why this thing drives me crazy
i just want to be something in your eyes

i always pushed myself to comfort you when you're sad, even tho i really want to do other stuff
i pushed myself to always makes you happy, and leave my happiness behind
i pushed myself to defend you from anyone, even if i know they're right

and that person only do a quarter of things i do for you
but that person still the main character in your eyes
one fake smile from that person can change your mood
one fake saying from that person and you'll change your mind
one fake hug from that person and that person gains your trusts
anything that person wants you'll give it

but for me
it will take a whole year for me to change your mood
it will take a whole year for me to change your mind
it will take a whole year for me to gain your trust
it will take forever for me to get something i want from you
why? that's because i'm NO ONE in your sight

it's just, i tried so hard, that it made me cry
that person even do mean things to you
and yet you still think that person is everything
what do i do to you?
and just suddenly you leave me when i need you the most
you hurt me when i need your back

and you know what
that person have addiction to a person to
that's why that person of yours doesn't care what you think
doesn't care what you feel
doesn't care about you at all

......