what have i created?

How do I know who I am
I want a life, a dream, a goal a reason
I want to be something, someone
But what who am I
How can I know
 
I've been lost, hidden, buried
Afraid to speak, afraid to express
I've been a prisoner of my fears
To afraid to do anything

To scared, to weak , to afraid
Afraid of what...
Afraid of who I am
How can I know who I am
 
I don't know who I am, how can I 

Destroying my hopes
Of any freedom or control,
Feeding the voices,
Pushing them along,
All they want is power
But all you can give them is pain,
 
The suffering unbearable,
All i can do is grin and bear it,
No one noticing you
Eating away at my soul,

All i wanted was control
Of the life i saw passing me,
Loved ones leaving me
For reasons i'll never understand, 
The person i once was
Slipping through my fingers,
Exhausting my body and mind,
Lost in my own grief
Ignoring my senses
And not listening to the pain

Watching hopelessly
As my spirit dies